Somehow when its nearing the end of the year, we always seem to say ” Wow, time flies so fast.. The year is gonna end soon. ” Well at least i say that.. And well it does.. and yes i will always reflect on what i did.. and what i could’ve done better… or what i should’nt have done.. yeah all the regrets and “If Only” moments.
So my chapter of being a Chef is gone, at least for now.. The 6 months was like a crash course. Yeah i totally crashed… Gold coast was a good recovery period. And on my current course of “joblessness and a huge case of lazing around the house ” i’ve developed a few interests.
Speaking of interests… how can someone like another person for a period of approx 5 years? Yes, thats possible. Im a living example.. And i just keep wondering why cant i get over him? If i did, I wouldnt be asking this in the first place. So basically im just still hoping that one fine day i would pick up every ounce of courage i have and ask him… and hopefully his answer would be filled with rainbows and sparkles and unicorns and flowers and hearts and kisses AKA “Yes”… and not death and pain and suffering and trauma and depression AKA “No”. Im just being overly dramatic.. I mean who doesnt want the one they truly love to be the one they truly love.. It doesnt kill someone to hope and dream.. Unless in which that person get rejected or suffers trauma or somesort which leads to death… Im just too long-winded…
Theres so much more going on. So many of my friends are graduating, some getting engaged, some getting an awesome job, some getting a pay raise, some just actually full-filling their New Year’s resolution.. Thats really something.. Looking back in these past 8 months, 18 days, 23hrs ago… i dont actually feel proud of anything that i accomplished.
But, i’ve learnt alot.. having a strong will, having friends that surround you during times of need. Its hard to see someone close to you go thru shit and you cant do much to help him/her. And i know that if i was to go thru the same thing, i wouldnt have lasted that long to endure it. Its inspiring to see that they have that much courage to be stronger.